Defeat...

The fight is over

i see the turmoil

i see the destruction

i see clearly now

debris scattered around

I'm tired

I'm too tired to go on

I'm now gonna let it be

the turmoil the confusion has given way to an uneasy peace

let it go now

the fight is over

the truce is now

No!

how can i let go?

am i ready?

must i go on?

truce isnt the only way out is it?

abandon? peace? run away?

is there a right way? a wrong way? a left way?

I'm tired

truce it is....

il accept whatever is thrown

pathetic

but right now the only way out

I'm tired

defeated.

The Hands of The ANGEL

Once the fish roamed free
Free swimming in the oceans of the world
Moving gleefully with friends and foes
Never bothered to care for the world around
Self centred, selfish
not a worry in the world

People of the world
Bickering and weeping
Sniff Sniff, scoff scoff
They dont notice
they dont see
the bigger picture is out there
people who dont have problems
manufacture them
just to have something to cry about
CRY CRY! Weep weep, die all weak
you deserve nothing else

This fish one day
was thrown out of the sea..
on to the dry arid land
it lay on the shore
flipping flapping
flipping flapping
people walk by
no one notices

Who cares for others today
people walk by
watching people die helplessly
or worse, live in this world of misery
In good times they are around
to lap up your joy
suck it out of you
and then when the tides turn
they vanish into the air
from whence they came

The last ounce of energy
leaves the fish
it lies there gasping for breath
in this alien world
with no friends
its dieing and no one notices...
its quiet screams
not noticed...
all hope is lost
its going to die...
but then a bird comes like an ANGEL
picks it up
and drops it into the sea...

Why save it?
When you could have done just what others did?
Walk by notice yet not notice
why not simply feast on it?
Why not poke it and prod it while it dies?
The fish cannot say thank you
the bird cannot say why it was the savior
Neither can justify
It cannot be justified
they can be friends yet not friends..
they can talk yet they cannot talk...
the fish cannot say thank you...

Other animals watched
tigers, lions, WOLVES,
all watched..unmoved
emotionless...STARING
at the fishes imminent demise..

The Hands of an Angel..
Cannot be explained...

Stupidity Redefined!

A Candid Look into the Establishment which runs this Country

Scene 1: Calcutta

A bus speeding down VIP Road (the main arterial road connecting the city to the airport) in an effort to overtake another bus plying on a similar route, skids and falls into the canal running parallel to the road leaving 20 dead. The passengers were trapped and drowned as the bus fell sideways into the 6~10 foot deep ditch. First police car arrives ½ hour after the incident occurs, seeing a large group of people attempting to rescue passengers and fearing a mob, the car turns back. The first police crane arrived 1 hour after the incident and is discovered to be non functional. Another arrives 1 hour later and attempts to turn the bus, chain snaps. Eventually bus is pulled out of the canal a whole 4 hours after the incident.

The Blame Game

As usual there was a hue and cry after the incident. With allegations flying here and there, here are some of the more comical allegations heard from the mouths of the people who run the state.

One Minister boldly states “If the canal had not been dredged the level of water would be hardly 3 feet and no one would have died.” Minster may I remind you that it is your fellow ministers who had the canal dredged to have a ferry service run on the canal. It’s like tripping of a chair and blaming the chair for it!

Another minister says the commission system by which drivers are paid makes them drive rashly; they need to speed to earn! Excuse me minister did I hear you come up with an alternative, and the owners know the second they implement a salary system one of you dear fellow ministers will call a strike at the drop of a hat just now that the earnings of the driver is independent of his work.

Official Reaction

No real action was seen, the buses continue to race as they were as if those 20 lives never existed to be lost.

Public Reaction

Next day another bus races down VIP road, the passengers stop the bus and beat up the driver and conductor. I say touché to those people, since the officials are forever stuck in a blame game its better to take the law into your own hand.

And officer later has the audacity to comment in a newspaper article “yes we had to be called in to rescue the driver.” Speechless is what I am!

Scene 2: The Indo-US Nuclear Deal

Some see it as a vital step to develop India’s relation with the United States. After many parliamentary committee and more deemed it suitable the deal was put forth in parliament. All parties reasonably agree it is okay.

Now suddenly the Communist Party feels that it hasn’t spoken in a while and since it is one of the principle members of the United Progressive Alliance it must show it has power too. So some Carrot or something suddenly decides that if the deal isn’t stopped the will let the government fall. A deal which has been cleared by god knows how many different strata of the establishment are frozen by the will of a single deluded political party.

Minister Speak:

The conditions in the policy are unacceptable to the sovereignty of the nuclear program of the country. The Communist party cannot allow this deal to go through in its present form

This deal has been given the all clear by various parliamentary committees and the Prime Minister declared in Parliament that the deal doesn’t compromise the independence of India’s Nuclear Program.

Scene 3: Pollution in Calcutta

Proposals to Counter the Rising Pollution in the city

-Introduction of Alternative or Cleaner Fuels such as LPG or CNG- Large Scale CNG reserves is available in Assam or Siliguri. However instead of thinking short, the establishment thinks of cross country pipelines. I even read one suggesting that bringing oil from Iraq or Iran would help Bengal get CNG. Anyway the Oil lobby is so powerful that they neither allow

-Phasing out of all vehicles older than 10 years- This was probably the most entertaining of them all, the second that the Taxi Unions and Bus unions got a sniff of such a proposal they went on strike. I may add that this policy was successfully implemented in the Capital.

-Comprehensive Pollution Check posts- According to reports by many major newspapers a PUC (Pollution Under Control) Certificate can be obtained by paying a bribe ranging from Rs 50 to Rs 500 depending on how much you vehicle is polluting above the limit.

Minister Speak:

Transport Minister

2006-Calcutta is one of the cleanest cities in the country. The air we breathe is clean and clear. (This despite a report that the pollution levels of the city is reaching alarmingly high levels)

2007- There is no evidence to prove that the city has high levels of pollution or to prove that the old busses have anything to do with it. (Evidence presented to him, older busses pollute as much as 50% more that the ones with new engines)

2008- Yes the pollution in the city is in a bad shape, something needs to be done.

Four months on, nothing seems to be done.

One could just go on and on about the ridiculous nature of the establishment. At every corner you see the hypocrites and bungling nitwits that they are. The political decay has seeped into many educational establishments. The parties at their will are able to freeze an entire city. Should such power rest with such deluded, fanatical morons? Are we right to put them in power? Are they executing the power given to them by us according to our will or theirs? There seems to be no end to this pit. It seems there is no way out. But one must be optimistic and hope there is a light at the end of this long and dark tunnel. Most choose to ignore the hypocritical and conflicting nature of our governments just so that they can have a peaceful nights sleep knowing that they are in better hands than our neighbouring countries. But the dirty little secret is ....Are we really????

The Girl

I walk down a dark pathway
The moonlight streaming in through the dense canopy
I see a shadow
a Female form
yet a form is the best way to describe it
not human, not solid
I pursue her yet she seems the same distance away
Whose the girl in the distance ahead
Perhaps The shadow of the one meant for me?
The more I focus the blury she gets
the more i seek in my mind the sharper form gets
so many people i meet along the way
her features change
the distance varies
yet she remains a distance away
the pursuit is a waste
the ideal gal a sham
there is no one out there
who perfect in all ways
no one you are meant to be with
its all a big sham
as big a farce as destiny or fate

yet people before me and many after will continue
the pursuit

the pursuit of the perfect girl.

The Light Dawns

The Dawn is breaking

its not early morn

the thunder is rumbling

is it the lull before the storm?

the night is flourishing in all its graveness

the darkness is just a disguise

for the worse to come

is it?

i sit here waiting

the storm seems to be passing......

no wait its just a break in the clouds

the false rays of sun shine falls upon me

I flick my hair away

i turn my head away in disgust.....

what game new game do you now play?

the ground is unfamiliar

what surprises do you bring?

the crack in the clouds is shut again.....

the thunder rumbles on

i flick my hair away

look down in disgust.....

Death in a lonely corner

today i am dying

my friends around

O my friends!

I am dying..

people around me,

my friends,

my foes,

come together to live

in d day of a new life

i am dying

i die unnoticed,

in lonely corner of my mind

the battles i have fought

the battle i have won

no longer a reason to stay awake....

on the eve of the day of life,

I am dying.

Shit if only

if only

i could say "Oh lord"

shit

I dont believe in god

so i cant even fool myself

fool myself

that there is hope

o my friends

o my friends

o my friends

I am.....

Succumbing to a Trend

In this world there are very few things that actually interest me. I watch many many sports, whether it is tennis, Formula 1, Cricket, Football etc....but I worship none. Some people can rattle of the First Team members of Clubs they follow in Football for the last 15 years! If you ask me, I hesitate and may just be able to tell you the names of the current team. Some know all the chants of the club supporters, so tell me does it make me less of a fan? Do I deserve to be called a fan? Does the fact that I support a club but may or may not worship it make me less of a fan? Then lets come to songs, I have heard all kinds of music, liked most of it, ask me to sing a song I like, I wont be able to....so again I ask you does it make me less of a music follower? So if I dont worship clubs, dont mug up lyrics what on earth do I do?? So does it all make me less interesting? So what is the criteria for deciding if a person is interesting or not, is it that you must be able to rattle of names of players, sings out club chants, mug up lyrics? Is it all about succumbing to a trend? Just because a certain Person X follows and supports a club , a person Y will either follow the trend and follow the same club, or go against the trend and support a rival club. So is all this about trends....Just like fashion will trends change? My brother introduced me to Football or to be more precise Manchester United when I was 12 years old, this was when most of my classmates used to discuss WWE and DragonbalZ. Now these same friends 6 years on, follow clubs of the EPL and claim that they are bigger fans than me. Some can be called blind supporters, these are the people who think Tevez is performing well, when I realistically make a comment about his failure to adapt to Man Utds style of play, a friend of mine blatantly said that I dont deserve to be called a fan. If only they knew that I have followed United when they were discussing about Booker T and Rock! If only they knew....then comes the other category, the drifters, those who follow a trend rather than create one, Chelsea wins 2 Premierships in a row, suddenly some so called Arsenal and United fans switched over to Chelsea! What a funny thing the human mind is! Now tell me, who is the trend setter, who is the trend follower, who is the trend breaker? Life is a screwed up mess, So are we.